In the past two weeks ive experianced stuff that has changed me for life.
2 weeks ago today, my life changed. My dad came barging in, kicked me out of the house and lied about what had happened. Even though i knew the relationship with one of my parents was over, i still had one of the best nights ever.
I spent the day at my mums with my sister Alice and her boyfriend Sammy.
I then got dropped off at my friend Jeannis at about 7pm. I walked home and my dad wasnt home so i went inside.
I then had an epic walk in the rain from my dads, to the alcohol shop at allum street, and then back down the hill and around the waterfront to st heliars. I then got picked up by kj and richard where we went to churchill park and then to Michelles house. That was a funny night. I ended up spending the night at adils. A persons whos house i would never think i would stay at.
The next day was spent getting rid of the munchies at kjs house. Then off on another funny night. Which ended extremely badly.
I ended up going home for the first time since id been kicked out. I couldnt have been dropped off at a worse time tho. My sister was having her 20th birthday party.

The next day was shit.
Even though i was supposed to go see catherine because it was the first day she was back, i couldnt.

The next day was even worse.
I ended up pretty much getting attacked by my dad.
I guess its a good thing. I now know what he is really like.

The next week was spent sleeping on the couch at my best friend braidens house.
And the st cuths ball in the weekend which was the best night ever.

And now its friday. Night before the Glendowie Ball.
Im drinking with braiden again like last week.
I havnt spoken to my dad for 10 days now.
And i have a feeling i wont be talking to him for awhile.

Anyway.
The past two weeks have been the best and worst two weeks of my life.
But enough about that.
Back to drinking.
Have a good night :).

So..
Turns out im moving in with my mate braiden.
This should be an interesting year.

If i had to compare last night with last saturday then last saturday was the worst night of my life and last night was the best night.

I now havnt talked to my dad in 5 days.
And i have no idea when i will see or talk to him again. Meh.

Im just keen for next weekend.
Another ball should be good :).

A year ago i wouldnt have guessed that my life would be like this.

My mum hadnt met richard.
I hadnt met Catherine.
I didnt know the "other" side of my dad.
I hardly knew Elaine.

I wish i could say the the past year has been the best year.
But theres only two things i can say im glad that have happened in the past year.
-Catherine.
-My mum being happy with richard.

If only those could have happened and nothing else changed.
But yet again, "if only" is the start of that sentence...

You may think about whats going to happen in the future, maybe 10-20 years from now.
And whats going to happen when you grow up.

But you never think about whats going to change in the next month.

Ok, Fuck it.

Im sick of this shit.

Its the subtle things that end up making the difference.

I decided i needa change.
I guess thats a little generic considering the people i usually hang out with at school.
But this is different.
Its more a life than a personality change.
I guess personality could help a little too but that has to wait.

I dont know where to start, But family might be a good idea.

Right Now.

Right now i have no idea what is going to happen.
There is so much that could, and alot of that i dont want to happen.
But depending on what happens, I will always be there for the people i care about.

I havnt talked to my dad for more than 24 hours now.
I guess thats a good thing seeing as its not "safe" for me to be alone with him.
It will probably be another 4 or 5 days until i do talk to him again.
I just dont want anything to turn out how it did with him and my sister.

I was reading something the other day and it said,
"You look so hard to find a reason to leave, and when a reason finally turns up, theres something that makes you want to stay".
Its exactly the way i feel right now.
And the way i have felt for almost 4 months now.

I dont know what he thinks he can change,
But i know for certain that he cant change yet.

I have no idea..

I swear i have lost all direction.

I have no idea what to do.

I have no idea where to go from here.

I know i cant blame my mum for all this, But if it wasnt for her leaving then none of this would have ever happened.

I hate some stuff for happening.

It made me who i never wanted to be.

But then again.

I love some things for happening.

And will remember them forever.

And love the people forever.

Ive never experianced life like this.

I hope i never have to experiance it like this again.

But until i sort shit out with my dad and the rest of my family,

then it will be like this forever.

I hope what im holding is good.

Because im not letting go.

I fucked up..
Probably the worst ive ever fucked up..
And now i have no idea what to do..
I cant even say sorry to half the people..
And the one person that does matter,
Hardly realises how much i do love her..

I just want to go back to the start of the holidays.
There is so much i want to change.
But no point feeling sorry for myself..

Its currently 6:38 pm on the second and last thursday of the holidays.
I just got back from the new Harry Potter movie with my sister. It was good.
When i got home. My report was sitting in the mail.
Its now open and scattered over the table.
I am dredding the moment my dad finally walks in the door.

I can see me ending up at Alex or Jeanni's tonight.
Preferably neither.
But with the state of my report.
It will probly end up in a fight.

Which sucks because it kills my seemingly perfect day.

Woke up later then was supposed to (like always) :P. at 10 when i was suppiosed to be at alex's at 10:15. Quick shower. Walked there. Went to get Jeanni and Miho.
Turned up at Tsveti's. Even tho it was supposed to be a "surprise" party. The birthday girl showed up first.
Tsveti had made pancakes and we put Blood Sugar by Pendulum on which has surprisingly good bass.
Steven, Ari, Pari and Elleshia showed up.
Miho and Jeanni decided it would be a good idea to go to Gi in the boot of Stevens car. Bad idea.
Me and Elleshia then walked to hers and i finally got the photos id been wanting for about 6 months now.
I then walked home and then went to see Harry Potter.
All up a good day.

Sucks that it will be ruined.
But i better go.
Have a good night :)

So much for that..

So much for not staying up past one tonight :P
So much for not going to churchill park with richard and kj again today.
So much for giving a fuck.

I love imgfave.com
It has photos that are so true.
Like these:

Have you ever had the feeling when you cannot be fucked anymore? With anything?

Coz I have that feeling right now.

Last night was rather interesting.
Had an epic adventure through cornwall park where tim bailed extremely badly.
Cut his lip outside and inside. Looked so bad.
We went back to his then adventured back out to miccy d's at greenlane.
Funny times there.

Anyway.
Now im home and my dad decided he wants to make my room massive by demolishing the wall inbetween the two rooms. And he wants me to help.
I cant be fuckkkked. I want to sleep. So tired.

But i better go help him.
See u soooon. :)

Life has a way of fucking you up.

Is it just me..?

Or does everyone have a million problems in their life right now?

At the start of 09, i was asked if i wanted to move to australia.
I couldnt think of anything i wanted to do less.
But now, Just over half way through the year.
I cant think of anything that makes me want to stay in new zealand.

Im back in NZ :).
Australia turned out to be pretty good. Richard is almost all good now. I saw my mum. And me nd braiden had a rave with mr soapy soap. :P

But now back in nz stuff is screwed.
My laptop is fucked.
People are being dicks.
Feels like no one gives a shit right now.

But anyway. I had a pretty sweet morning.
Got dropped off at about 12 45am.
My dad wasnt home and i had no key so i had to break into my own house.
Which is actually extremely easy. Im surprised we havnt been robbed.

But i should probably go.
Its 12 33 pm and im still in bed.
Laterrrrs :)

Aus.

YOOO!
Last night in aus.
Pretty keen for flight home :)
Been a good week.
Havnt blogged in awhile.

Dreamworld was funny shittt.
And whitewater world was funny.
Me nd braiden were cold so we wanted to find the spas. no spa.
SO!
We went to the disabled toilets. Had a hot shower.
F*ck yea.

Today.
Had an epic trip to 'Condom Kingdom'.
Some mean photos with a giant orange condom.
:)

I also found a mean band.
'NeverShoutNever!'.
30 Days is a good song by them. u should get itttt.

Anyway.
I have to get off the interwebs.
Laterrrrs.
Next time i blog ill be in NZ :)

Australia.
Been pretty good so far. Richard is getting better. Not so much of a faggg.
My mum nd him are STILL hinting at me moving to australia to live with them. Not keen.


Dreamworld today.
Was pretty sweet!
We are the shit.
Went on the spongebob flying shit.
Braiden: "This is pretty lame"
Will: "Shut the fuck up, its awesome" :P
Spinny chairs :D (i think we really annoyed the girl running it)
Tried to go on the merri-go-round. But no.

Im actually not starting to be keen for going home.
Hopefully my report hasnt come..
I can see the fights me and my dad will get in..
I really hope jeanni ends up coming home on saturday.
And i wish Catherine was back :(.

Anyway!
Its 10:30(aus time) and i am tired as from today, and we are back to there again tomoro to go to the water park. so i better go.
Cya Sooooon. :)

Good Afternoon :).
If you didnt know.
Im in Australia.

Me and braiden just got home from our epic walk.
We walked to some shop.
Then back through the college then along some road, up some road, to a park, got lost.
Then found our way home. :).

We bought the meanest shit at the shops today and at the shop me and braiden went to.

Today.
I got a mean new jumper from jay jays.
New jeans from levis.
And a meannn assss jumper from fila.
We also got donut king. Best shit ever.

From mine and braidens epic walk we got mean shit too.
Gatorade.
LOL energy drink.
Pulse gum.
Reese's peanut butter cups (CARAMEL).
AND!
Cadbury snack bar.

Not keen for tomoro. Going to some gay ass markets.

But lol.
I love the song "I Shake, I Move" by LMFAO.
We on the dance floor, light it up like a candle.

But oii.
Missing catherine :(.

Yo yo yo.

Currently sitting on the plane. With braiden playing tetris. Me writing in word. For my blog.

He says “Hi yaaaa (in a gay voice)”

I have no idea how long we have been in the air. And i don’t know how much longer we have on the plane. Apparently the flight attendant is an ex-shortland street actor. But we don’t know who the f**k she was so meh.

We are turning atm. It feels weird as fuckkkk.

Now we be shaking.

Baby get shaky on the plane! Wowow

I really want to know how much longer we have left. But i cant see anything but fucking clouds.

And lol. The dude on the end of our row is sleeping. So keen to draw on his face.

And oiiii. Catherine. You didn’t even text back when i sent u the last text. >=[.

Braiden is a nosy motherfucker. Hes reading this.

Whore.

Flying feels real weird.

And oiii. I see land. But apparently we have an hour left. Mofos.

I am keen to listen to some a song with hard out bass.

Hrmm.

Frick i miss Catherine alredy. Well, i have since last night after she left. But like. Alot now.

:(

AND OMFG!!!!!!

FUCKING MICROSOFT WORD HAS FRICKEN SMILEYS!!!!!

Sorry. I just buzzed out over the smileys :P.

Frick i wanna get off this plane and go on msn.Talk to people/person.

ANYWAY!

I page of Microsoft word is up. Later bitches.

:)

:(

Just said good bye to Catherine. :(.
Either kill me now or put me to sleep for two weeks.

Tomoro, i go to australia.
Gonna be a freaking party.
Not.
Even though im going with my best friend Braiden, it probly will not be as good as i would hope.
I mean, i cant talk to Catherine and i have to spend a week in the same house as .. yep.

its 10:20, 11 hours and 40 mins before im getting picked up. STILL havnt finished packing. Some of my stuff is still being washed or dryed.
Im fucked.

ANYWAY!
Not keen for tomoro. 3 pm.
Have to say good bye to Catherine for two weeks :(.

Anyway, I probably should finish packing.
Talk later :)