Great Start To The Holidays.

This weekend has possibly been the best weekend this year.

One thing that also made it better was the fact it was the start of the holidays.

And now im not complaining that its sunday which is the best feeling.

Friday started off with Tes's sixteenth, ive known Tes since i was born, which was good.

Was on the meannest buzz all night. Walking round smiling :P.

Talked to a couple of people.

Met some people that ive herd shit loads about but never met.

Saturday started off with a hangover and db.

I dont really remember the day but im very glad sammy invited me to sean's.

We got to sammys and had an epic walk to glover park. Started drinking on the way.

Met up with my sister and her sammy. Played circle of death for a bit. Drank some wine.

Had about a bottle and a half. Then a couple of shots of 42 below to top it off.

Pretty fucked. Then the walk home at 2 was fun :P.

Met up with alice and sammy for the walk home. They were pretty fucked.

So sammy decides that his pants are annoying him so just casually takes them off. Interesting.

Today has been full of sleeping. Interneting. And yea.

Have a pretty bad hangover. But atleast i have 2 weeks to recover :P.

Should've, Would've, Could've.

2 and a half months down the track and im still thinking about what i would be doing right now if i had just straight up left.

If i had gone to st heliars with chris after school.

If i hadnt gone upstairs.

If i had reacted differently.

If i had said that one thing.

If one thing had been done differently would i be here right now.

Would i be writing this.

Would i still be feeling like shit day after day.

Lately ive been worrying about whats going to happen next year.

And i still have no idea where im going to be.

But one thing im glad about, is now its just me.

No more worrying about everyone else.

"Your eyes are the only stars i want to see
your lips is the only air i want to breath
so please tell me that i'm asking for too much
because there's so much of myself that i've given up"

All Or Nothing-Hit The Lights.

Kill me, Now please.

So this is the second day, in a row, that ive had for study leave.

Except study cant probably be included in the list of things that ive done.

Tomoro i have the last two of my exams, Accounting and Geo.

Accounting im probably gonna fail seeing as in the mid years i wrote just my name.

Geo, i might pass if i stay up till atleast one tonight.

Fuck.

Mayb not studying wasnt the smartest thing to do :P.

But as soon as exams are over im off to big bay with a group of people for two nights.

I seriously dont think i will ever recover from the hangover from the nights.

And i think that i will always be downbuzz after it :P.

So keen.

Two Things.

There is two things i wish i could do right now.

1: See you.
2: Make all of this end.

"Don’t say goodbye
Cause I don’t wanna hear those words tonight
Cause maybe it’s not the end for you and I
And although we knew
This time would come for me and you
Don’t say anything tonight
If you’re gonna say goodbye"

Say Goodbye-Skillet

Its so much easier when you only have to worry about yourself.
When theres noone that is asking you for something.
Asking you to do something.
Its so much easier just living for yourself.
Not having to care for anyone else.
I know that it makes it more fun.
But right now,
I couldnt care less.

So exams start on friday.
Havnt started studying.
Im fucked for pretty much all of them.
But ive alredy passed level 2 so meh.

Life just gets better and better.

Note: Im not being sarcastic for once :P.

Today is fathers day.
And, its strange.
I never used to remember when fathers day was.
But now, even tho i dont have a dad, i rememberd.

Im not too keen for school tomoro.
The phrase "Gillies is a slut!" might get chucked around abit.

Also, i learnt last night to never use a can.
Bad idea.

Anyway. More sleep.
Still downbuzzing.

Buzzy.

Woooo.
Just woke up and im feeling rather average.
Which sucks hard.
I drank like, 3.

Bitchass.

Rosies was gaaaaangster.
First time ive met her.

Anyway. I gotta sleep some more.
Sleep this shittyness off. :(

So i just got home from an epic night.
Partially under the influence of i dont know what.

It was actually one of the best nights tho.
Saw the scariest movie of my life.
And then got some hilarious videos.

Im so glad i dont live with my parents.

But this sunday will either be really hard, or really awkward.

Gaaaaansgster.

Spring is here.
Which is good coz it means summer is that much closer.

Im so keen for this term to finish.
And hopefully these holidays will be as good as last.

This week has been pretty good.
Very relaxed actually.

Best thing about it being closer to summer is the 3 next best dates.
21st sep: Jew from christchurch.
Nov: Year 12 is over :)
26th Dec: AUS!!!

Anyway.
I have to finish my film seminar.